Have you ever felt in times of humiliation, stress or trauma your inner self envelope you with love and want to give you a great big hug?
Recently I was reminded of a time when my Grade 5 teacher asked each member of my class to stand on the scales. At the time I was an extremely self-conscious 10 year old. I had developed quite young compared to other girls my age and so the thought of having to stand on those scales in front of my classmates filled me with an overwhelming sense of utter dread.
It turns out I was the heaviest in the class.
For many years I carried the embarrassment and humiliation of that moment. Recently I was asked to feel that moment again during an Overview Method Session with Dr Nima Rahmany. As he guided me gently through an active meditation, I again recalled the resentment and humiliation of that moment. However this time, almost 30 years later, a new memory emerged.
In that same moment of humiliation, I now recall hearing my inner self gently speak to me telling me that it was going to be okay. I now remember taking a deep breath, hopping on the scale and feeling an overwhelming need to give myself a big hug. Despite feeling humiliated by the number that appeared on the scale, I now remember standing on those scales with dignity and inner strength. I now realise that it was at that moment, the moment I could indentify with my inner self love and support, that my inner strength was born.
As I reflect on my life, I now realise it has been that same inner strength, that same hug that has supported me throughout the many difficult moments in my life.
30 years on, I am now grateful for the very event that I once perceived as a moment of complete humiliation and embarrassment.
It is a very common experience for people to be spoken to by their inner strength in moments of stress, trauma or humiliation. I wanted to share my experience with you in the hope that you too can recall a time where your were enveloped by love and hugs from your inner strength.
Perhaps now you will be able to connect with a time where this has occurred. If so, I would love to hear of your experiences.